Why?

Ok... So Thanksgiving being this weekend... Its a time for family and friends to come together.. Included in this would be my Boyfriend. Well Since I have moved to the city I have not seen him, our lives revolve around texting and phone conversations and of course MSN, so this was a big deal! I know he has been feeling off because I am now over 2 hours away from him and he has no way to come and see me, so Being the "romantic" I am I figured I would show him how much I love him/Care! So the other day I wrote down every time I thought about him and why... and today went to the florist, and had them attach a card to a one flower for every time! well... I think about him alot! So 46 or 47 flowers were purchased! The florist was going to make an exception and deliver them tomorrow because she was touched by what I was doing! Well..... about half an hour ago I get a text from the guy I love saying that he isn't going to come anymore, he is leaving town with his mom! I would understand completely if he didn't see her on a regular basis... but this isn't the case! And they fact that he lets me know the night before!? Obviously the feelings I have are NOT shared!!! But the thing is this is the first person I can say I have truly loved! I cant stop thinking of him, I Cry.. at the thought of not being with him or being able to see him... AND I'M NOT A CRIER!!! I don't know If I can just keep going like this.... and he knows that its going to be a while before I can come back down!

I GIVE UP!